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As I
grew and matured, I began to experience the peer pressure from the other
children my age. When they went to the movie theater and to the afternoon
dances that was sometimes held at the school I was limited in my ability to
participate. My parents didn’t want to keep me from my peers, but they felt
the need to censor my activities and keep me focused on the Lord.
Every
thing changed once I reached eighth grade. My parents decided that it would be
better for me to go to a Christian type school instead of the public school I
attended. Someone had told my mother about a Presbyterian school, called Boggs
Academy, located in Keysville, Georgia. It was suppose to be a college prep
school. It was a boarding school with a “good reputation” and the thought was
to help me be around other Christian thinking kids my age.
Good
ideas aren’t always the way they seem. Once reaching Boggs, I found that
several of the kids had been sent from their respective neighborhoods in NY,
Chicago, Philadelphia, Detroit, etc. by their parents, hoping to get them away
from the potential problems of urban life. Once these kids hooked up on this
small campus in rural Georgia they began to incorporate many of the things
that their parent was trying to shelter them from.
The
peer pressure became too hard for some one like me who wanted to belong. I had
been sheltered from many of the things such as cigarettes, alcohol and drugs
while living at home with my parents. Although these things were prohibited on
the campus at Boggs, they still crept in when kids returned from vacations
home.
I
began my first vice of smoking cigarettes at twelve years old. I use to slip
behind the boy’s dormitory and smoke with the guys who had permission to smoke
from their parents. During that time guys who got a letter in writing from
their parents could smoke. I was not about to ask my parents to give me
permission but I still smoked.
In my
junior year someone slipped in a fifth of vodka for me and my roommate to
drink for our junior-senior prom. I got plastered before going to the prom.
This was my introduction to alcohol.
In my
senior year someone brought some marijuana back during the holidays. I bought
some and tried it for the first time. It was found to be the in thing to do by
all the “cool” guys at that time. I wanted to be “cool” too.
Although college brought me closer to home, I continued to experiment with
drugs and alcohol. Four quarters later I dropped out of college and moved to
my birth home, Akron Ohio. More reasons to find and hang out with “cool”
people was waiting in Ohio. More reasons to do more drugs presented itself.
As you
can see, the pattern of using more and more substances to help me try to fit
in increased. As years progressed and locations changed, the substance abuse
followed me where ever I went, but in the back of my head I wanted to get back
to the person I used to be before I used my first substance. I wanted to be
ten years old again.
In
1988 I tried my first hit of crack cocaine. I thought I had finally found the
answer. I was an Emergency Medical Technician in Atlanta, Georgia at the time
and knew all the dangers this drug carried. Somehow, in my mind, it was worth
the risk.
I
began smoking once or twice a month when I first started. It wasn’t long at
all before that changed to every two weeks when I got paid. Finally, I was
smoking crack every day. I would smoke up my two week paycheck in two days. I
would borrow money from credit cards once that was gone. I would borrow from
friends and family as long as I could.
I
tried to stop on my own many times to no avail. I went into a treatment center
on April 14, 1989 and stayed clean for about sixty days before relapsing. I
tried getting clean again and remained clean for about ninety days that time,
but I seem to be drawn back to that crack pipe.
Finally, after almost a year of relapse I had had enough. Although I seem to
be battling with a lot of guilt and shame I crawled into a treatment center
for a seven day detoxification period on September 5, 1990. I have not had the
need to use any drug or alcohol since that date.
God has been with me throughout this struggle. He has freed me
from the bondage these substances put on me. He can do the same for you or
someone you might know that struggle from addiction. All He need is the
willingness from you to let him in.
In 2004 I founded Three Corners Christian Recovery Residences,
Inc. for Christian men that struggle from substance abuse. This is a ten
month residential program that allows men to recover from substance abuse
while changing spiritually, emotionally, physically, mentally, vocationally,
and any other way God may want them to change.
We are located just north of Hazlehurst in Jeff Davis County.
Our goal is to become a Christian based recovery community known around the
country by Christians looking for a “City of Refuge” from the vices of Satan.
We are supported by Hazlehurst church of Christ and other congregations along
with individuals around the country.
If you would like to help us provide this most needed resource
please contact Wayde Fullard at 912-379-9188 or 912-253-9047. You can visit
our website at www.threecornersministries.org or email us at
threecorners@bellsouth.net
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